Hannah brownThe book didn’t just cover his trip to the Bachelor Nation. On God bless this mess: learning to live and love through the best (and worst) moments in life, the ex-single becomes real about her childhood, Dancing with the stars N-word trip and scandal.
“I think [writing about my childhood and The Bachelor] they both came up with their own challenges, ”said Brown, 27, exclusively Us weekly prior to the book launch on Tuesday, November 23. “The tragedy with my aunt and my cousins was very hard because I had never really prosecuted it. I had just gotten a therapist when I decided to write this book. It was a kind of homework that he gave me to write [about] that. That was really difficult because obviously there were a lot of emotions there. But on the other side of that, it was really healing. And not just for me, but for my family, which appears at the end of the book, like, how it has really healed our family of something that has just remained that hidden thorn in everyone’s side that we just covered. and pretend it’s not there. “
In the memoir, Brown revealed that his aunt LeeLee and two cousins, Robin, 6, and Trent, 4, were brutally murdered by a man who was allowed to live in a trailer in their backyard after he worked at their home. The man, who previously served time for a non-violent crime, was on a work release program. Brown was 6 years old at the time of the tragedy.
The former Miss Alabama also faces problems with her mental health, brought on by toxic ex-boyfriends and pressure to succeed in her pageant days.
“I think the most important thing is that we live in a society where it’s like moving on, distracting, distracting, doing the next thing, winning this, doing this, and there is no praise, reward, amount of money, followers, whatever. , that can really cure the pain unless you get the job done, “said Brown. Us. “It will just keep building and building and building and becoming something you never thought it would be if you didn’t really go to the source. And sometimes that means that you are going to fall to the ground and it is going to hurt a lot, but maybe that is the moment when you can start to heal. … It’s important in my book because, like, your mess can be your message in the end if you can afford it. But first you have to dig into the mess. I think it’s really being honest with yourself and what your shit is the only way you’re going to heal and live life in a really shocking and meaningful way. “
God bless this mess follow her Single and Bachelorette party post-show travel and opportunities, including Dancing with the stars. While he won season 28 in 2019, he revealed in the book how much he was struggling with at the time.
“I remember being like, ‘I just need one win in my life to feel better.’ And realizing that it didn’t make me feel better, that moment was also devastating, ”he told us. “I remember being like, ‘Oh no, it’s supposed to feel different than this.’ That was a great moment in life for me. And one of the most important learning lessons I have ever had. I think I was supposed to win Dancing with the stars to be able to have that story of: you can win the thing but you have to realize it can’t mean anything if you’re just looking for the trophies [and] if you haven’t really worked on your heart first. “
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